\u201cI don\u2019t know what to say, Sara. I really don\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n
She tried to smile through her tears as she moved her head to the sound of my voice. I was struck by how odd it was to see her cry; I had not seen her cry since the accident, and her closed eyes with tears seemed somehow unnatural to me.<\/p>\n
\u201cI know that you are suffering Ethan, I know you are hiding things from me and I cannot bear that there is this wall between us. You know that I don\u2019t blame you for anything, but since I left the hospital it\u2019s as though you can\u2019t bear to touch me. When you do kiss me, or hold me I can feel your reticence and when I\u2019ve tried to initiate anything more you back away from me. I can\u2019t bear that you are still here because you feel guilty; just go!\u201d<\/p>\n
I want so very much to be able to say that my heart broke in that moment, but I felt it lift; as though all of my guilt left me and I was free again. Not my guilt for taking her sight, but the guilt that was holding me to her.<\/p>\n
I kissed her forehead, picked up my keys and left.<\/p>\n
\u201cBye.\u201d<\/p>\n
—<\/p>\n
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